the unwanted dream.....

Yesterday i dream bout you. Yes. Is YOU.. The person i be with BEFORE. The person i wish to be in my whole life..... The person i like.The person i love. But.... is a past tense already.... almost 8 months v break up.A very useless way to break up... hmmm

Back to the dreaming thing.. i dream u were right in front of me... Heart pain... in that dream that's a person so called my friend... when straight to u n scolded u..... askin y u hurtin me like this. n i started to ask her to stop it n go... cos i don wan u to see me such useless face i can life without you.

I refuse to talk to u.... jux sitting opposite of me... i refuse to talk n look at u.........

I belief i will do the same thing to you if i see u in real life. I wish i can delete u in my mind... but its hard..... hard to not to think bout you.... I WILL BE TOUGH..... I DESERVE BETTER..... U WILL REGRET... U WILL GO THRU WAT IM I NOW.... I KNOW... U WILL FEEL IT.. LIKE WAT U DID TO ME....

I WILL BE BETTER.... WAIT N SEE.....

Need Shopping Badly :(

I NEED NEW SHIRTS, NEW PANTS, NEW SHOES, NEW HEELS, NEW BAGGGGGG, NEW THIS, NEW THAT!!!!!!!!!!!

Is really toooOoOooOo long i didn't go for shopping..... WTF =='' due to financial problem i think i need to wait 3 months later, i think i only can go for shopping =____________=''

Well..... is so hard for me jux look at the stuff n waiting to buy it..... erghHhHHhhHHH....

i WANNA get something like this :

can anyone tell me where to get this type of bag.....????? similar also can...... is jux so beautiful .....

look at this lady legging n shoe..... love it sooooOooOOo much..... wish Malaysia got this kind of stuff... cos all those nice stuff will not appear here... where will only be overseas =='' wtf.....

ANTM Cycle 14

Im now crazy with ANTM. I don even miss any episode... Jux Lovvve wat they do.... make over,photoshooting n runway...... too bad im not tall enough... ahahahhaha

the latest season Cycle 14 Winner is KRISTA. She do have great photos, she is weak at first but she is improving and improving every episode....

This is her best photos :)

Congratulations KRISTA!!!!!!!!

T.T

2 years.......
not a long period..... but is also not a short period......
we've been together for 2 yrs.....
a lot of things always come up to my mind.....
a lot of questions like...... Do you still love me.....?
or.....do u lie to me...... or......... u dun love me anymore.....
do u really treat me as Ur gf.....?
or.... do u ever think to break up with me......?
or..... do u fall in love with others girl.... or ..........
this is all the stupid question u know.......
but it keeps appear in my mind...... everyday.... every single day.....
even i cry in the nite..... i still not dare to ask u.....

2 years...... even v din celebrate valentine days for this 2 years.....
even ..... u don wan to hold my hand..... even,,..... v dun even have any couple t shirt or what.....
i dun mind..... i really dun mind.... i know u will think that ..... not necessary to do that....
okay...... i dun mind.....

simple things..... don ever lie to me.....
i not sure whether u got lie to me .....
but my six sense told me u r.....

sometime..... ur reaction make me dun trust u.....
but im still not dare..... not dare to ask.....
i cant step out.... is bcos don't wan something bad happen.....
i just wan to be with u......

SICK =="

arGghhhhhh....... Hate sick........
Sore throat..... Coughing.... Headache......

Ya! Thanks to my brother lor...... Spread-ing all the viruses around.....
N now im the one who get it......
hate those sick feeling.... very torturing le......
Wu~~~ WU~~~~~ this Sunday sumore got show le.......

PSP.... HAHHAHAHAH

at last consider for almost 1 year......
i decided to buy my own own psp........ hahhahahhaha
but that a very hard problem which.... PSP 2000 or PSP 3000.....?
but as i know 2000 more stable..... n 3000 graffic nicer.....
hmmmm....... how le.......
researching know also....... maybe consider 2000 lor.....
all lapsap add together around RM899 lor.....
not bad hor.......
kekekkeke.....
PSP wait fer me ,,....... i will get u soon...... ahhahahahahaha

a lie...

'THIS' i kept in my heart almost 1 year plus....

At first im really give all my 100% trust to him....
I find out that he told me a lie.....
THIS lie he made...He thougt is not to let me sad...?
My point here.... I DON THINK SO....

Story goes like this....
He told me his friends ask him out to Times Square so he cant go out with me....
OK fine...
Then I ask him how many ppl going with him...? He answered total 4 person going...
And he say got 'guy' n girls going tooo....
Well....
After 1 week i come out with him...
I saw his hp screen saver changed...
our picture change to other pic he took with 2 cute girlz...
He said his "sister".
So ladys n gentlemen...
Things appear in ur mind is that the 4th person is a 'guy' rite...?
Well i saw his picture in hp again... i saw another girl
He say this girl came together with them to Times Square...

When i heard that.... my heart suddenly felt like a lemon juice poured....
He dint realize that he tell me a lie....
Untill today he din even tell me the truth...

I don mind he go out with other girl...
At least he told me he wanted to go out with them...
Y u need to lie to me...
This is so stupid...

But i also don have the braveness to ask him....
i still keep in my heart..........
Is bcos I didnt want something bad happen....
A lie is always a bad things...